每当我在晕车之中,呕吐之后 我的相信人的生命是这样的短暂的信念就更加明确 还有我也就愈来愈相信人总是在忍受着痛苦的 虽然有时候我也想到痛苦之后就有快乐的 但却丝毫没有影响我对死的平淡的看法 每当我想起我不能在任何女人面前自在的自然的畅谈一切 我也便就想到这么短暂的生命又何必要跟她们打交道 这么短暂的生命甚至不够我自己玩个痛快 却一直在痛苦和快乐中盘旋 每当我想起我甚至不能和我认识的所谓的朋友中的任何一个毫无顾忌的畅谈我的心事的时候 我也愈来愈相信人都是披着所谓的人皮 而我怎样努力也无法看透这人世间 每当我想起还有亲爱的爸爸在殷切的期盼着我的成功 我却不能为他而置生命于不顾,为了他而尽我最大的努力 我也就更加不知道我活着是为了什么 我甚至不知道如果爸爸也不在的话 我是否会活着忍受这些痛苦 我能忍,也忍到死了 但在痛苦的时候,想想人生的痛苦是那样的漫长 而不是短暂的一生 直到受尽所有的磨难才能离开这世界 每天在游戏和网络中躲避痛苦的烦恼 却又常常想起烦恼终究只是能躲避一时的 陷入无尽的踌躇之中 我无法走出
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